Tuesday, July 9, 2019
After dinner family walk at this little nature area by our house. Downtown Detroit morning on 4th of July Doug's parents came over on Saturday to hang out a bit with both kiddos since they would be babysitting the 2 for the first time on Monday when I went back to work. We had asked them to spend a couple hours and were dreaming of going out to brunch or a matinee movie, but they got here and somehow didn't think they were going to stay more than an hour.... ok... no fun for us. Anyway, no fun for anyone actually. Jeanie was SCREAMING and wouldn't take a bottle or nurse or sleep. Everyone was very worried for Monday, I was even thinking I might have to quit. But, by the end of the day Doug got Jeanie to take a bottle, AND the binky! He says his secret was prayer! I don't doubt it. Anyway, off I went to work yesterday and so worried, Doug called in a couple times to check in, and they reported that Jeanie was "easy". Woohoo! It's already a struggle being away from them, and I'm so blessed that if they're not home with me they're either with Dad or their grandparents, so I was just glad that it was going well. Hoping it stays that way! Sunday we went over to a friend's for dinner and lake fun. It was our annual time out on the lake, wish it happened more often! I got to wakeboard (and am still SO sore 2 days later) Jeannie and Jeanie! And we had a little family tube Pictures from our walk to the park today: freshly picked roadside black raspberries!
Wednesday, July 3, 2019
These 12 weeks have flown by. That phrase the days are long but the years are fast is so true. My baby girl is 11.5 weeks, and on Monday I go back to work. I am 'ready' for some adult interaction and being challenged at work, but I know I will miss my babies. I find myself often wishing I could work just 1 day a week, but in all, I feel pretty blessed that I can work 2 (long 13 hr days) but be home 5 out of 7 days a week, that is a blessing. I was reading this on facebook and it stuck out to me: A lot of times that's 'all' I feel I do. But it makes me tear up just reading this. (Not that I'm searching for worth), but I matter to my children. So many times a day I hear "mama come play with August", "mama kiss it", "mama help you", "mama read it", and I'm so happy that I am here to do those things. Even thought a lot of our days seem like diapers, making food and cleaning up, household chores, and naps, it feels good to do life with my family. And I'm sad for the end of our 'carefree days' I've had during this maternity leave. Last night I was sitting in the rocking chair with August during our bedtime routine, already he won't sit on my lap, "I sit next to mama", and I just looked down and see his little legs sticking straight out next to mine, and he hummed along while I sang our bedtime songs. He's growing so fast. It seems like just yesterday he was a little baby. And now my real little baby is already growing so fast too. She learned how to rollover already Doug put up another wall on the co-sleeper to keep her safely on her side. This past week was fun with a playdate at Liz's new house build: And we will have some family time together and see friends over the 4th, and then back to work. We try to keep our expenses low so that I possibly can go down to contingent (only work 3 days a month), but I'd lose the health ins. for me and the kids (Doug's is terrible), and that would pretty much eliminate any extra padding in the budget for vacations or extras. Our house is starting to feel a bit tight with 4, but same issue, do I want to make-do with less and be home? Or 'have more' material things and have to work more. Anyway, this is a current conversation that Doug and I have quite often. For the time being, I am trying to be content with what we have, and to be thankful, and make these days matter with my children.
Wednesday, June 26, 2019
This past weekend was a good one. On Friday we got to celebrate with my friend Kelly as she married our college friend Ed. She had lost her husband a few years ago suddenly and it has been beyond inspiring to see her steadfast trust in the Lord to get her, and her three children, through such a heart-breaking time. The theme of the wedding was 'faithfulness' and He truly is faithful. It was fun for us to see lots of our old college friends too, eat delicious food, dance the night away, and celebrate with Kelly and Ed. The next night was my 20 year high school reunion. Wow, that makes me feel old! I found myself as I was in high school, but I guess I still am like that today too, waiting for others to approach me instead of reaching out. So, due to that, I didn't get to talk to everyone and left a little disappointed. But I did get to talk to a lot of people and have some nice conversations. Out of a graduating class of 49, about 21 came so not too shabby. Actually several more still live in the area and didn't come, so too bad. It was odd having some classmates with kids in high school and there was us with Jeanie, so I still felt young :) It is crazy how time flies!
Thursday, June 20, 2019
I feel so behind on life. I have stacks of dishes to wash, stacks of receipts to enter into the budget, a dishwasher to unload, a dryer of clothes to fold, and two little babies who are happening to have their nap overlap which seems like a miracle lately. My poor boy had a fever last night so he was up at 1:30am screaming, but luckily baby girl went down pretty easily and then after her 5am feed, slept till 9am. Awesome. Anyway, time to wind down a bit and write. I still like writing the blog, I just wish I could do it faster! I've never found this blog interface to be very user-friendly. We had a great start to June with my brother and his family being in town. We went to the zoo, and then we all rented an Airbnb by the lake and had a good weekend away. (Except for when Jeanie was awake from 1pm to 11pm and was crying on and off the entire day from being overtired. I just don't understand this phenomenon, just close your eyes and go to sleep!) But overall it was a great visit and good time together. Love our zoo August was surprisingly not into this splash pad at all My siblings, together again at last! The boardwalk from the rental home to the lake Grandma & Grandpa with all their grandchildren <3 August did love this big bucket o' sand toys I got for him, he could've scooped sand for hours This month Jeanie also met her Uncle Brian who was home from his trucking duties for a couple days And August has been eagerly checking the garden every morning for any new ripe strawberries :) and to check on the presence of a couple resident toads. The first flower from my boy, awwww And baby girl is 2 months already!! Feeling busy but blessed.
Wednesday, May 29, 2019
Watching: So into this tiny house show. Could I do it? Probably not. But I like watching it. Loved this movie, totally recommend. Frivolous fun. Reading: A good read so far. Eating: This instant pot shawarma recipe. It was pretty spicy, but tasty!
Tuesday, May 21, 2019
I survived my first week at home alone with 2 kids!! Doug worked out a pretty neat schedule with his work for after baby. He was home the first week all the time, then the next week he worked from home 6-8am, again at nap, and an hour in the evenings, the third week he went in to work one day and did the work from home the other days, then the fourth week he worked 2 days and from home the other days - so it was a very slow transition. I think it was helpful, although maybe it would've also been better to be 'thrown into the fire' because I did have a lot of anxiety in those days before he went back to real work. But anyway, we have a week or so under our belt so I'm feeling more confident. It also helped to have had a couple friend play dates with another mom friend who is on maternity leave and with Liz and her kids. So I've made it out of the house to playdates, but nothing too hard like being somewhere at a specific time or to a grocery store or anything with two. I feel a lot more anxious about it, which I hate feeling like that, but it is what it is. Jeanie is a carseat-crier, she just doesn't like it. And August, is mostly well-behaved, but also 2. It also is logistically hard getting out of the house. Physically it's hard to get the car doors open in the garage to get the carseat in if the other car is parked, and I can't both carry Jeanie in her carseat and hold August's hand while going down the steps into the garage (while also carrying diaper bag, purse, and anything else I always seem to have). So we've started doing one kid at a time, which I also don't like. Anyway, I don't know how twin moms, or moms of more than 2 do it!?? I know it seems like I'm complaining a lot. It has been a big adjustment for me one to two. Missing sleep, sitting around in pjs all day until they finally both miraculously sleep at the same time for 1/2 hour so I can try to squeeze in an exercise video and/or shower. I feel guilty also just 'passing time' till naptime for a little free time. I'm hoping it will get easier. She was laying like this with her arms up for a good 10 minutes 1 month already!! play date girl-time outside watching brother he can't get enough of this car Mother's day brunch :) sweet baby She's like "you sure you got me?!" play date this morning at a play place.