Tuesday, June 12, 2012
Last weekend went really well. Thank you for the thoughts and prayers! I felt some peace and it was a really good time with my family. It was good to see too that most of the 'judgment' I feel is just in me. I judge me for being divorced. And God is still working on me. To be more gracious to others with stuff that is going on in their lives, and still working on me to not be so hard on myself. That's one thing too my counselor has been working on me with. He tells me that just because there is 'no reason', I can't just make that reason be 'me'. Friday night we stayed with an aunt and uncle that I really love. I love their walk with God, I love their family, I love their hearts. They were sharing how they recently became involved with marriage reconciliation, hosting couples and counselors as the troubled couples do a week long intensive counseling session. These are couples in ministry and we know the devil attacks them extra hard. When they told me about that I cried because my heart too is for reconciliation, and I so want that for Andrew and I. But as I've learned- it takes two to be married, but only one to get divorced. On Saturday my cousin Peter became ordained as a priest. His oldest brother is also a priest and it was beautiful to see them together. Two brothers dedicating their lives to God's work. The laying on of hands Father Matthew kissing Father Peter's hand, such a humble image All the priests lined up to hug Peter and welcome him into their brotherhood I remember Peter once telling me his ministry was to reach people who have been raised in the Catholic faith but have left for some reason or other. It seems I have met so many people in that category, and I love his heart to reach people and bring them back to a God who loves them. A blessing for a priest: "Loving God be close to your servant Father Peter, as he follows your Son. Guide him in paths that are level and smooth. May your powerful grace make him strong in faith, joyful in hope, and fervent in love, this day and every day to come. We ask this through Jesus Christ, our Lord."