Thursday, May 23, 2013
I went to make some of my favorite tostadas the other day. It was already like 7 or so and I was really hungry. I'd used up a bunch of leftovers from the bare fridge and when I went to put it in the oven, I must have bobbled it: I don't even know how it happened, but they fell, cheese side down of course onto the hot oven door and even into the crack. I was so mad! I did laugh and get my camera, but I was mad. Confession: except for the one that fell mostly in the crack, I scraped them off the oven lid and cooked and ate it anyway. That actually grosses me out a little, who knows when that oven lid was cleaned, but I had seriously just used everything eatable left in the fridge to make them, I was hungry, and my plain stubbornness made me do it. Of course first I had to turn off the oven so I could clean off all the melted cheese, salsa, and smeared refried beans. It didn't help that that day was the the first of the really hot days, and I was soaking wet sweaty and nasty as I scrubbed a 350 degree oven in already 85 degree heat. That probably didn't help my irritability. I'm starting to get worried about the summer. After not sleeping much this winter because of loud pipe noises, it's looking like I'm not going to get much sleep in the summer either because of the heat. It gets really hot and stuffy in my room. My old apt was hot too, it's not just here, but we had a nice big window and some nights 3 fans going. And on the really bad nights we'd drag the air mattress into the living room where the AC unit was. I've thought about putting a little cot in the basement here, but it is a shared basement and the thought of people coming down kinda creeps me out. So hopefully the fan(s) situation will work, we'll see I guess!
Monday, May 20, 2013
Last week I made slow cooker tamale pie. I get home kinda late from basketball class and I don't want to have to cook dinner after that and eat super late. there it is all cheesy and delicious digging in The one problem was that the recipe uses a jiffy cornbread mix and I made my own since Jiffy uses lard, but their box must make a small thing, and my cornbread recipe made a lot, so there was a huge loaf on top and the ratio seemed off, but otherwise tasty. Ready to relax and eat and watch episodes of Arrested Development season 3 to prepare for season 4!!!
Thursday, May 16, 2013
So I'm 2 for 2 now with my basketball class. Last night's guy: To set the stage, world's briefest conversation about motorcycles, then Guy: You like motorcycles? Me: Yes. Guy: I'd love to take you for a ride on my Harley next week Me: I'm more of a Kawasaki kind of girl Guy: Wow, wow. ..... Guy: Well think about it and tell me next week. Me: *thinking* that gives me one week to figure out how to say no The problem is battling my motorcycle ride lust vs. not wanting to give mixed messages and not wanting to have another 6 weeks of awkwardness at class. I need to have my friend Jill in my head all the time helping me 1) figure out what people are really trying to say/ask me and 2) how to respond without being a complete jerk!!
Wednesday, May 15, 2013
Beef stirfry sliced and diced (and beef strips browned) the most important part, the sauce, I'm getting better at it... frying it up yum! And a snacky type recipe: At work a girl brought in these "Aussie Bites" from Costco. They were SO good. But I don't have a card, and wanted to try to make some myself. I used this googled recipe All my dry things in there, flours, sugar, nuts & seeds, coconut, cranberries & apricots They turned out pretty good! Not quite as good as the store ones, but still pretty good. Now I have a bunch in the freezer for my work snack. Last night's dinner wasn't as great as I had hoped. I was looking forward to this recipe for weeks, but it went in the trash after I tried it out. This blog girl's food always looks so mouthwatering, but mine is always just 'meh'. the tomatoes looked so perfect Ingredients: mozzarella cheese, basil, baguette, olive oil, s & p Tomatoes and bread ready to roast (the bread was like the best part, but all Kroger had left was white baguettes, I could feel my blood sugar spiking with every bite) The cheese and basil. The blog girl used fancy fresh mozzerella, but I wasn't about to pay $6 for cheese, sorry. There it was all assembled with balsamic vinegar dressing. NOOO!! STAY ON YOUR SIDE vinegar!!! :( It was kinda good, but I don't know, the croutons got all mooshy from the roasted tomato juices and I just wasn't that impressed. Then my stomach hurt again when I went running after dinner. From the food? Or seriously how long do you have to wait to run after eating?? This past weekend for mother's day I went home and made my mom beef stroganoff, asparagus and corn on the cob for her mother's day lunch, and it was delicious. Then for supper later we just wanted something small. "Pancakes or waffles?" asked Dad, "PANCAKES!!!" I yelled from the living room. My dad is thee best pancake maker. A bit later I heard mom telling dad that she could start the pancakes, and he said, "she wants ME to make them". Yup. Yes I do. I don't know his secret, he just follows the Betty Crocker recipe, but they are SO delicious every time.
Monday, May 13, 2013
Yesterday at church the worship band played this new song Oceans (Where Feet May Fail). Oh my gosh. Amazing. Some of the words really stuck out to me "You've never failed me- and you won't start now," "Let me walk upon the waters wherever you would call me," "Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander". I already feel like God really speaks to me through worship and the words of songs like this really hit home. Of course I thought about this past year and I just kept thinking about how good God has been to me. Those words are so true. So of course I'm crying and sniffling by the end of the song, and it's like just make it to the car! The sermon too was on miracles and the pastor talked about how we have to trust that God is good and His plans are good, even if we have to climb the mountain instead of the mountain being moved. He knows the race marked out before me, and He will help my feet not to fail. (Heb.12:1) For me, God didn't move the mountain. He loves Andrew so much that He allowed him to make his own choice, God would not overstep Andrew's will. And although that meant the end for our marriage, I love that about God. But God also didn't leave me there, He gave me the ability to climb over the mountain, He carried me. He never failed me. He called me into deeper waters than my feet would ever have wandered by myself. Where I had been 'content' in my relationship with God, being divorced brought me to a place of absolute brokenness, hurt, fear, rejection- a place of needing God more than anything else. My faith has been made stronger and I'm so thankful for the good that God has brought out of the brokenness. The Lord will fulfill his purpose for me; your steadfast love, O Lord, endures forever. Do not forsake the work of your hands. Psalm 138:8
Thursday, May 9, 2013
I am (almost) halfway done with nursing school! Woohoo! And I didn't fail!! Yaaay! Today was my last exam, and then met up with a few classmates at a bar. Good times. Now it's the summer off (from nursing school at least), still working, and reading thru ALL my notes from this year so I don't forget. I'm ready for a break! Well I did go to my first basketball class last night, aka white girls can't jump. Specifically one white girl at least.. First it seemed like I was going to be the only girl, but a few more trickled in. I was relieved until I saw one girl's shirt "basketball championships 2008", this is a beginner's class people! Go to intermediate where you belong!! But the girls were actually really nice and were teaching me to play 21. I was asking the coach/teacher if this class is going to actually teach me to play because I have absolutely no interest in paying $100+ to have another nightmare of 9th grade gym. He said he was sure I'd learn something. We'll see I guess! So I found the perfect place to go to have people hit on you, yup, basketball class. The perfect place that is if you are into just out of high school boys. Two guys said something to me last night, on the way out the one said "Can I talk to you?" Me: "No". Sheesh, I'm so awkward! But don't ask me like that and make it weird, just talk to me! I must have impressed him with my mad skills.
Wednesday, May 8, 2013
Haha, these made me laugh (from failblog.org) I like that sweet little cactus one, although I don't really believe it, there are many amazing women, I even know some myself, that haven't found anyone to share the rest of their lives with. And even as my counselor so heartbreakingly honestly told me, "you could get divorced again and again". Gee thanks! But keeping it real I guess. As I know too well now, I can only control me and my decisions. I really like this saying