Last night's divorce class was on lonliness. One of the speakers talked about how it's good to be 'single' but it is not good to be 'alone'. The speaker said 'single' means to be separate, unique and whole. Alone is when you push everyone away. It talked about the road ahead drawing close and depending on Jesus. It talked about being healed and filled by Him. And taking time to be made whole in Him. That part sounds good.
I remember when this first all happened. I was laying in my bed, Andrew was gone, I felt so alone and I just laid there crying and repeating "I'm afraid" over and over like Rainman.
But I don't need to be afraid anymore.
"Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.” Joshua 1:9
“Because he loves me,” says the Lord, “I will rescue him; I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name. He will call on me, and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble, I will deliver him and honor him.
With long life I will satisfy him and show him my salvation.” Psalm 91:14-16
"Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid." John 14:27
God has been healing me and providing for me. He has been with me. He has provided people to walk through life with me and show me I'm not alone.
I got this email from my mom the other day: YOU WILL BE OK.
I'm starting to believe it.