Wednesday, August 1, 2012


Today's my birthday.
Even when I was married sometimes I would think about how life is so different from what you imagined as a kid. I especially think about that now. I never thought at 31 I would be childless and going back to school, I certainly never thought I'd be divorced. I guess what I've been working on these past several months is facing the facts.
Last year on my birthday Andrew gave me a 5 year journal where you write a few lines a day and can look back and see how life has changed. Since this divorce stuff I thought I want a new one, I didn't want to look back every day for the remaining 4 years and live through this divorce all over everyday. But in other ways, I can already see how God has been providing for me and restoring. Now I think it might be really good to look back and see how God was there the whole time. And to have written proof of how he has moved and changed me, and hopefully I will see some of those famous prosperous plans He's always talking about! :)
My counselor told me that come new year eve's I would see that day as a completely new year, because it would have been a full year since Andrew announced he wanted a divorce. I think that will probably be true- but I'm also starting to feel hopeful now. And even though 31 sounds old and scary to be starting over, I see this birthday as a fresh new year.
Last night was the last small group for the summer. We had a BBQ and sat on the porch. It was fun. And the ladies in the group gave me something so precious:
They all signed this picture frame and wrote such wonderful things. It really touched me. That's one thing, I may have lost my marriage this year but God has provided such a wonderful community to walk through this with me. And for that I am thankful.
"Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint." Isaiah 40:30-31


  1. What a sweet gift from those girls!!!! I hope you have an amazing day birthday twin, love you!

  2. I saw your name change on Facebook when wishing you Happy Birthday, and found this blog to see the news I hadn't seen before. Although I never knew Andrew and you and I aren't really that close except as Cedar Campus alums, finding this out broke my heart. I am glad you have such a strong faith and a strong support system surrounding you. You have a great testimony to God's faithfulness. I only wish I had such a strong faith. I hope you have a great birthday and see even more blessings in the future.

  3. Happy Birthday!!!!!!

    I love to see how God is growing you and He IS and will continue to do amazing things in your life!

  4. Aww, such sweet comments from those girls, brought me to tears! Sounds like they already know how awesome you are, for only knowing you a short time. I'm so glad God has blessed you with such amazing people near you. Love and miss you sis!

  5. I hope you had a nice birthday. And the was a great gift those girls gave you.