Friday, January 25, 2013

6 months

Well today I am 6 months divorced.
I had committed to waiting 6 months at the line of reconciliation without dating anyone to see what God was going to do. So now I guess I'm free to start saying 'yes' to all those dates I keep getting asked out on!
Just kidding.
I actually find myself being very content to just keep taking one day at a time and walking on the path God has for me. And plus one day I even guiltily thought that it was good I was divorced because I'm so busy right now I'd probably be a terrible wife, although, if I were still married the plan was for me not to have to work.. and so maybe I'd have a better balance.... Anyway, it is what it is and I'm doing my best with what I can do!
Not that I want to be single forever surrounded by cats, but maybe God wants me to be a great cat mom. We'll see.
I can't even imagine dating right now. The thought just makes me feel wierd.
In so many ways I feel Andrew will be hard to beat. Like impossible. I really prayerfully considered dating and marrying him, and I truly believed him to be God's best for me. When I remember him, I remember our good times and his funny faces, impressions, comments, things that made him him. Personality wise, I just don't know if I cound find a better match. And other things too, well, until he wasn't - he was wise and a really good man. But committment wise, as it turned out, that's another story. I was thinking yesterday, that sadly, a goose would be a better husband than he was. Geese mate for life at least.
Again I am just blown away by how good God has been to me. 6 months have flown by and God has been really good. I still have a lot of days where I wish this never happened, but God is making me ok. His promises are true:
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. Romans 8:28


  1. Hey there! I'm still thinking and praying for you over here in AZ! God will give you the motivation and the right heart when His timing is perfect- I know it.

    I KNOW it's not even closely the same- and I'm not at all comparing- but I was engaged before and we broke it off. It was painful and difficult (again- not comparing) in more ways than I can count, and over and over I kept thinking, how could anyone else ever compare? He was supposed to be my "one".

    Well, years later, my husband is- by far- the best thing (other than salvation of course) that has ever happened to me. I was the prodigal child and God blessed me with a loyal, Christ-loving man who I truly never saw myself with. Like I said, not comparing, every life experience is different, every heart unique. However, I can understand thinking that there's no one better for you out there- and for me at least- I was really, really wrong.

    Praying for you sister, every day. You have so much to be proud of, and I am encouraged by your wholehearted love for God.

    1. Thank you for sharing your story Adrienne. You have such a tender heart and such a sweet way with words. And thank you for your prayers. I hope I'm wrong too! :)